even my heart can not endure it.
how can YOu let this happen to me?
coz, just to feel the smell of deathness makes me hurt..
i just want to escape from this pain..
Your presence seems so far away…
and i myself not a super woman..
who can handle it by own strenght..
you feels so far to gain
you feels like illusion
your love
your hate
your pain
your mind
your life
i never tend to hurt you
but it just too hard to gain
something that feels unreal to me
if only i have a bigger capacity
i’ll love you
i’ll take care of you
i’ll dedicate my life for you
but i’m just a flawed woman
that have willing but no ability
there is so much thing out there…
i dont understand..
there’s so much thing out there
i never thought i’ll experience
my life is just a lil pieces of shape
i dont know what to make..
i was in a tiny space..
in my tiny mind and capacity
but now..
this world extends before me..
and i cry..
o. Lord…
where to bring…
i’m alone in this world
have no one with me
have no one to rely on
have no place to back home
have no ground to stand..
then i cry to You, O Lord
coz, this life too hard to face
this heart too weak to endure
this woman is too much in help of You
lord i surrender my life
into Your hand
in my imperfection
in my flaws
in my weakness
in my lack of understanding
i know…
that You are here with me
i’ll be save
